If I were God

 

 

If I were God…

I would have only one commandment – LOVE

I would have only one religion – LOVE

I would have only one healing salve for all ills – Love

You would know me and I you by the LOVE we share

 

There would be no suffering because

LOVE is incapable of selfishness and greed

LOVE discerns no difference between itself and others

LOVE just celebrates our togetherness, our oneness

 

Inside you lies a treasure so perfect

Open your heart and receive what you have been gifted with

Give up your external search for happiness and nurturing

LOVE is inside you – Just be it!

 

 

I love you!

Nicolette

 

 

 

I am Sorry

How brave are any of us to admit our shortcomings? How honest are we with ourselves in noticing and admitting our behaviour?

We are quick to point out the faults in others but never seem to see those same faults in ourselves. Why is it that we judge others' sins because they sin differently to us? It is because we are so devious in hiding the truth from ourselves. We see what we want to see and that is that we are perfect and innocent  and we project the blame onto others. By focusing on others we create a buffer so that we don't have to confront and stir up the muck in ourselves.

We love to jump onto the self-righteous band wagon and team together and knock the murderers, the rapists, the liars, the cheats, the greedy and the racists.

But we need to step off our self-righteous platforms of pseudo perfectionism and climb down onto the level playing fields and be truthful with ourselves. Are we not all being catapulted along by our ravenous capitalistic greed? Are we not all hoarders of more stuff than we need? Do we not lie and deceive others in order to get ahead? It may be in withholding information, so that we can pip someone to the post and clinch that deal. It may be not disclosing the price we paid for an item, so that we can make an indecent profit.

We point our fingers at the scamsters and those who accept and pay bribes, but don't we do the self same things? We justify our indiscretions by fooling ourselves into believing that what we have done is so slight and so minuscule that it won't hurt anyone. Do you think as most of us do that to steal a person's life savings is so much worse than stealing some of the boss's time? Do you consider killing a person a worse crime than killing a snake?

I was chatting to a friend of mine, who happens to be a black woman, the other day when she related a conversation she had had with her son. Something prompted her to say: "That's not a very black thing to do." and her son quickly admonished her, saying: "Mom, that's racist!"

I then squared myself up to my friend and looked her straight in the eyes and said: "I am a racist. In fact we all are."

You see, it is only when we are honest with ourselves and we look behind the mask we show the world, that we start to notice that we are everything we ever accused anyone else of being.

I confess I am a racist. I have judged people by the colour of their skin. I have judged people by their sexuality and their nationality. I have judged others for being different to myself. But as I confess this I am aware of a shift that is happening within myself. I am becoming conscious and I am not proud of my behaviour. I realise that I was once acting unconsciously because I feared other peoples' otherness.

Judging others is steeped in fear. It is the fear that their being different to me might cause them to not tolerate me. It is the fear that perhaps I am not good enough and I need to wear a mask so people don't see my imperfections.

As I confront my fear I am able to say: "I am a  racist. I don't like that realisation. It makes me feel shameful and everything I despise in others.

It is a relief to engage fully in the proverbial mirror and confess my shortcomings - to realise that I am no different to anyone else.

I am sorry for my judgements. I am sorry for my unconscious behaviour up until now. And being sorry, I access compassion for myself and I forgive myself for the blindness of my conditioned behaviour.

I know that having alerted myself to my unconscious behaviour that I am going to catch myself as and when that old pattern emerges until it eventually disappears.

 

I realise that it matters not whether you are a person from a previously disadvantaged group, or whether you are a hardened right wing lobbyist or merely a bystander who has profited at the expense of others; we all are challenged by our fears and it is time that we all step up to the confession booth and say: "I am a racist and I am sorry." Because when we do our hearts will change and the world will become a true reflection of what we all have in our hearts.

Wishing you a week of heartfelt love

Nicolette

I am Woman

I was asked to write an article for the Cape Times on what literature I am reading right now. As I delved into the article I thought it might be of interest if I shared it with you.

Two books are vying for my attention on my bedside table - The Spirit of Intimacy by Sobonfu Somé and The Goddess Bootcamp by Kagiso Msimango.

The Goddess Bootcamp is a book you literally have to dive into and do the exercises after each chapter. You have to go within and bare your soul to yourself. I physically reached a deadlock on page 60 when I was asked to write down 25 reasons why it is great to be a woman. Msimango gets to the jugular in terms of what our societal conditioning has done to diminish the worth of the feminine. Until I was asked that question I had no idea how much militant feminism was brewing inside myself.

That simple question gave me the opportunity to look inside and address the unexpressed anger I harboured towards being born a woman. I had no idea that I had feelings of inferiority or regrets based upon my gender. Masimango had me revisiting the story of Eve in the bible and I was instructed to draw up a list of all the beliefs and conclusions I had drawn up about myself and women in general as a result of her story.

I couldn't believe all the negativity that poured out of me. I explored how Eve being a temptress made me feel like a seductress too. If I was created out of only one of Adam's ribs then I am denigrated to subservience. I am a second rate citizen. As Eve took the brunt of blame for humanity's sin, so I felt shameful. The fact that Eve was made to suffer for her sins by having painful periods and childbirth made me angry that I was condemned to womanhood, and made to suffer for her indiscretions. I resented my femininity. I remembered how in puberty I resented growing breasts and starting my periods. I considered being a woman a curse.  

Then I began the second part of the exercise. I had to write down the positives to Eve's story.

I initially wrote in capitals NOTHING!!! I feel so worthless and defeated.

But then a softening began to develop and I confessed to liking that I am a free thinker. I am not controlled by fear or by what other people think. As I focused on Eve's positive traits I began to glow with pride that Eve was a leader, not a follower. She obviously was charming, attractive and persuasive. She had a way with words and was a good sales woman, magnetic and believable. What I love about her is she has a mind of her own. She was brave and adventurous and an 'outside of the box' kind of thinker and that made me proud to be a woman. Suddenly I was glowing with self-worth and self-respect and love flowed right back in where fear, anger and hatred had smothered her eternal light.

 

Kagiso's book opened the door to a dark layer of unlove that lay within me shrouding my most valuable asset which is LOVE. As I removed the barriers that stood in the way of me living my truth, I awoke to the knowledge that I needed to forgive myself for hating an aspect of me. How enlightening it is to face each new day and each new challenge as an opportunity to forgive my past and step into my power which is the knowledge of who I am. I am a beautiful aspect of Divine light. My expression is in feminine form and feminine is not wrong or right. It just is. Feminine and masculine exist because of and to serve one another. They are equal and opposite sides of the same coin. How beautiful to be reminded of the knowledge that I am exactly who and what I am meant to be.

“I am what I am, because of who we all are.”

So now without further ado, I wish to state publicly that I am proud to be WOMAN. I am proud not because that makes me anything better or worse, not because there is a right or wrong, but just simply because I AM WOMAN.

Have the best week ahead

 

in love because love is all there is

Nicolette

 

 

Welcome to Earth Jordan Christian Lodge

 born 10 September 2013

 



Precious little grandson
You are a child of God
You are perfect in every way
You are a bundle of Spirit/Love
I love you because I am love and you are love
We are one and the same
Our bloodline is our soul which we all share

You are coming to a place where they may have warned you
You will find out who and what you are
There will be times of sadness which you will need to experience
in order to heighten your experience of love
And remind you who you are

You will experience so many things here on Earth                                                                        
and I look forward to showing you and sharing with you the treasures I have gained
And I await the teachings you are coming to share with us

Earth is an amazing adventure for those who trust

I want you to know that you can place all your trust in God and the angels                                 
as they will always be with you
They never leave you

You will be able to steer your path by the choices you make
You will always have a choice
And always remember that when you make a choice you don't like
you are free to choose again

I look so forward to spending time with you
I will sing to you and teach you how to dance
We will share stories and play together
I can’t wait to share with you the beauty of all things natural
To roll on the grass and laugh at the sun
To witness the magic of a pearly moon
To walk barefoot in the sand
And dance in the rain

There is so much magic on planet Earth
That I can’t wait to share with you

Awaken to Earth slowly with a remembering of who you are and your Divine Earth purpose.
Bless you sweet soul.

love
Granny Nix

Missing Human

Where have conversations gone? Where are the conversation rooms of bygone ages, the conservatories, drawing rooms, parlours, music rooms and salons.

Today we have chat rooms, but they are very far removed from the chat rooms of the past. Chat rooms don't require you to sit opposite the person you're chatting to. In fact you don't have to be indoors or in a room at all. You can be on a separate continent and you don't have to use your vocal chords either. All that is required is the use of a few fingers and half a mind, whilst the other half multi-tasks on a variety of other activities like shopping, attending to business, helping a child with his homework and so on. Basically we can chat whilst we go about our day-to-day activities.

I saw the movie 'Disconnect' yesterday and it goes for the jugular with regards to the demise of communication and the human condition.

We have teenagers on ipads at the dinner table. We have adults at restaurants lining up their cell phones almost as a competition to see whose will ring first. We have executives, domestics, scholars and homemakers alike answering calls whilst they're busy doing something else. We attend lectures whilst churning out replies to e-mails on laptops, apple macs and iphones. We watch TV whilst Whatsapping, tweeting and texting.

The world is such a mumbo-jumbo, multi-tasking, fast-paced place these days. I don't know about you, but I certainly battle to stay focused in the present whilst having a conversation. There is always a tweet that seems to vie for my attention and it is not of the feathered variety.

Have you noticed that business partners, clients, corporates, even friends and relatives have little respect for meal times, public holidays or weekends anymore? Gone are the days of observed times of silence around meal times and bedtime and lie-ins on weekends. It seems that we humans are being fed a continuous stream of data and information, a steady and rude invasion of our senses, but have we become better communicators? NO.

There is a constant filtering of communication through us, but somehow it has become so constant, so invasive and demanding that we don't give it our full attention. We can't. We are bombarded with sense numbing information overload.

Well, perhaps I am speaking for myself here, but I have to confess that I battle to narrow my focus down to a single solitary conversation. Many of my communications are severely lacking. They lack focus and presence.

And do you want to know why? Because I am missing the knee-to-knee, face-to-face, eye-to-eye connect. It seems virtually impossible to focus on one person because of all the external stimuli. With all the distractions, I battle to read all the elements when I'm communicating. I miss the subtle nuances of body language, the sadness behind the angry words spoken in haste. I notice that we often don't hold eye contact when we speak to one another. We scarcely touch. We hardly ever engage without the intrusion of all the techno gadgetry.

And we wonder why in this technologically advanced age we have the highest rate of suicide, depression, loneliness and sadness.

We, humanity are missing each other. We are missing the simple basic need for human touch, for human caring and for a gentle, compassionate ear. We, humanity, are missing in action. We have become like robots, driven by the information that is passing through us.

Isn't it time to meet a friend without a phone, without a camera or any digital device; just to see her, just to hear her, just to be?

I am setting a new intention of connecting with the people in my midst. I want some real eyeball-to-eyeball connections this week. I want to discover what's missing in my conversations. I want the human with the information, not some call centre recording.

Let's get the human back into our communications this week

lots of love
Nicolette

Ego's Favourite Game

Do you know the most disempowering game your ego will play with you? It is called 'I am right and you are wrong'?

There is no right and there is no wrong. There is only what serves you and what serves you may very well not serve another. When we attach our identity to the self-righteous thought that we are right and we are innocent, we create a victim and a persecutor. We become the victim of that very disempowering thought process. You see often our ego thinks that playing the victim gives it a kind of power because of all the attention we get from others' pity or their shared defiance at what we have suffered; but it is a very contradictory misperception. As long as we rigidly attach ourselves to that self-righteous belief, we will remain stuck in this vortex of trying to let go of the past and trying to forgive, for eternity. You see, as we hand over our victim status, our ego will feel lost without its perceived power and so take it back, thereby repeating the cycle into perpetuity.

This is the reason that people are stuck 'trying to forgive' and why they never let go.

You cannot say: "I forgive you, but I will never forget". That is saying that you are hanging onto the grudge forever, isn't it? You cannot say: "I forgive you, but what you did was wrong." That statement says that I will always judge you. You see we forgive on the one hand and take it back with the other hand. Our ego wants to have the upper hand.

When you forgive you forgive 100%. You cannot half forgive. You either forgive or you don't and regrettably most people never forgive because they have the perception that they are right and they have been wronged. They hang onto their pride as if their ego is a very real thing that can be hurt.

What is pride? It is the false perception that you are better than everyone else. If you think that you are special, you've just made everyone else on this planet unspecial. That is not possible. We are not any more or less special than anyone else on this planet. We are all the same.

We need to admit our 'samenesses' and access humility, knowing full well that we are all human and we all make mistakes. We all act unconsciously at times, but that is alright. We learn from our bad judgements and make better choices next time around . We all deserve a second chance. That is why we are here on Earth having a human experience in a physical body.

The only way to release yourself from the prison of unforgiveness is to release all judgement of others and of yourself.

Start to observe when you are being misled by your ego. Your emotions will guide you. If you are feeling angry, bitter, depressed or unforgiving you are focusing on events in the past and are reliving the event through your negative emotions. If you notice that you are feeling stressed, anxious, worried or fearful you are projecting yourself into the future. Both of these two scenarios awaken us to the fact that we are in denial of the present. You cannot be in the present when you are in ego. When you become good at catching yourself when you slip into ego's deceptive ploys, you will be able to sidestep your ego and that is when you will experience the feelings of peace, contentment and bliss. Then you will experience your true power.

Your power awaits you. It is a gentle letting go of attachment to an all consuming ego and a surrendering to the Highest Will for the true manifestation of your life purpose.

You are Spirit and Spirit is indestructible. Spirit is where your real power resides. Don't ever be conned into the ego's favourite game because in striving for the illusion of power you will become the victim.

Have an enlightened week precious soul!

lots of love
Nicolette